So, you feel distant from your life. You may have made too much of it at one time.
Your life, no matter how you perceive it, is not your God. And so-called time has nothing to do with Oneness.
You have been walking through rooms you once thought you lived in. You were a passerby.
You are aloft now. You are not of the past. You are Soul. Anything less than Soul isn’t worth the time of day. Your life is not yours to weigh. Has the intellect taken over your heart these days? What for? To cause you ersatz woe?
Go back to sleep then. We will talk anon, you and I, and you will re-awaken to love.