Why I Left … And Why I Came Back – Friends Journal

Months before abandoning my meeting, I’d begun to question my faith. So often, while sitting in worship, it felt less like a time of silent “waiting on the Lord,” and more like a time of scattered wondering quietly to myself. Why does this bench hurt my back? Why can’t I sit still for five minutes before my behind gets numb? Has enough time elapsed for me to cross my legs again without appearing fidgety? Why won’t my mind shut up long enough to open up to a message from God? From there, the questions became, Do I belong? Am I spiritual enough to even be here?  And finally, I wonder if I need a sermon instead of silence?

Why I Left … And Why I Came Back – Friends Journal